Hey Mr. Jabba,
I had a dream last night that we were having a block party. Can you imagine that? Would it be on your street or mine? We’d have to block off one of them. Anyhoo, so in my dream I was organising this thing, it was a fundraiser for something or other. it was late and i was tired. I put the boys to bed. I remember that they were sweaty and both in need of a bath but we were all too tired to do the cleaning thing so off to bed dirty the boys went! I had just fallen into bed myself. Wife beater and cut off sweats that i’d been wearing all day fell in with me. At least i had the energy to take my socks and bra off.
Next thing i knew you walked into my house and found your way in the dark to my room. You pulled back the covers and crawled into bed with me. I realised you too had on a beater, God a guy in a wife beater and well fitted jeans gets me everytime, especially if he has good arms and ink. I took you to get your first for your 21st bday, dang that was over two years ago. You crawled in behind me and wrapped your lithe, tatted arms around me and pulled me in. I get weak with your smell still. You know i’m not a cologne fan, but yours on your skin with a touch of ciggy. Damn! There was always something about your smell that i just couldn’t resist. I still have to refrain myself from jumping you everytime we briefly see eachother! I don’t want to be selfish; my desires are fleeting.
I sleep mumble-complained that you were in my bed in your street clothes and you smiled and quietly chuckled ” You are too.” Of course you noticed. Your hands always found ways to explore my geography without making me feel groped. I found your hands with mine and entwined my fingers in your. I always wished you had longer fingers. I simply adore long fingers. i wonder if you are gonna get any taller. Sheff didn’t stop growing until well into his twenties. It’d be nice if you could hit six one at least.
I remember breathing you in again and not wanting to pursue an arguement about sleeping attire because i was soo knackered. So i snuggled in closer, enjoying your youth and warmth and fell back asleep.
I want to print this out and fold it up and leave it for you on your car but i don’t want to lead you on any further because i won’t be along for the ride, so maybe i shouldn’t. everytime i hug you i still find myself lost in your neck and i can’t help but kiss you oh so gently.
hope all is well my y9oung Joshie : ) xxx
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